It's been ages since I've done a Real Mama, Real Style post, and I apologize for that. I get emails requesting more of them all the time, but it's hard for me to do them for a few reasons - I don't really have a willing (or great) photographer, and also for quite a while now I just haven't felt comfortable in my clothes. Don't get me wrong - I've always liked the way I dress, but for the last year or so I haven't liked the way I looked in anything. It's a huge part of why I started on my fitness journey.
A few weeks ago I was at the mall, and walked past Ann Taylor. They had the cutest pants in the front window. I sighed, knowing that I just couldn't fit in that store. Then last Friday Leila and I were at the mall (her request), and I audibly sighed at the cute pants in the window again. Leila said "Just try them on, Mama!!" We had time to kill, so I did. I was bummed when I found out the store only went up to a size 14, but I took the pants to the fitting room anyways. They fit. I. WAS. SHOCKED. Leila (sweet girl that she is) started clapping, and saying how beautiful I looked, and how of course she knew they would fit. She said I have to get them, and that I should wear them on Easter. Who am I to argue with that logic? I knew I didn't have any solid tops that would fit, so after buying my pants we went to Loft (Ann Taylor's slightly cheaper sister, lol) and I found the perfect black top. While I was in the fitting room one of the sales associates brought me two pairs of jeans and a sweater from their final sale rack, and encouraged me to try them on. I told her there was no way I could fit into their jeans, but she said "Well, I brought you the 14's, and I think they'll fit you beautifully. They're marked way, way down, but I can bring you the 16's too if you want to try them on." I asked her to bring the 16's, but they were too big (what in the actual hell?!?!) So I tried on the 14's and they fit!!!! SHOCK, I tell ya. One of the pairs is still a little too snug on me, but I'm confident they'll fit soon!
Here's my Easter outfit:
Now when I look at those pictures I think I look cute, but mentally I still pick myself apart (I may or may not have immediately started pinning arm workouts, and thinking about how much I neeeeeeeed to finally get some bras that fit!) Speaking better about myself, even in my head is something I still struggle with and am still working on. This is still all such a process, and I'm taking it one day at a time.
But to know that this was my first full outfit from a non plus size store (or the Target/Old Navy plus section) has been such a HUGE non-scale victory to me, though, and I'm feeling pretty happy about it!
If you're on Instagram, you can follow my fitness journey with the hashtag #glitterandglossgettingfit